September 10: A Year Later

Dear Amelia,
A year ago today, your dad and I did one of the most difficult things a parent will ever do--we handed you over to a team of doctors who changed your life. It was a decision that was very difficult for us, and we wouldn't even know if it was the best thing for you until several months later. A year ago today, I, as your mom, prayed that we had made the right decision. I prayed that you would never resent us for making the decision for you. A year ago today, I helplessly waited in a waiting room for your doctor to tell me you were ok. Those were the longest hours of my life. A year ago today, when I saw your bandaged body and held you, I thought I never wanted to let you go. I wanted to protect you from the world. But you are truly amazing. You are resilient. You surprise me every day with what you can do.

So, here we are a year later. You say things like, "Silly cool hand," and "Cool hand's turn." Those phrases are so common in our everyday conversation. You have embraced your difference. We have embraced your difference. We know, without a doubt, that the decision we made was the right one. Sure, it's been hard, but we are reminded often that you are so fortunate. Please remember that you can do anything you set your mind to do. Thank you for teaching me to look beyond other peoples' differences. I am so thankful God chose me and your dad to be your parents. I wouldn't have you any other way.